By Corcoran O’Leary

Senior year has so far been a polarizing experience. Already starting to feel the effects of the infamous senioritis, I have been increasingly indifferent towards my studies and find myself wishing for a quick end to my senior year.

However, these feelings I’m having about this year are not entirely negative, and while I dislike the predictability of the months to come, I appreciate it as well.

Being a student, I have known for the past 12 years more or less what the year to come was going to consist of, yet this year all of that has changed. I represent a portion of the senior population that is hopelessly lost in dealing with future after high school. I plan on attending college, but please don’t ask me what college or what I’m going to study; I’ve already let down enough of my relatives by dishing out my usual half-hearted mumblings before deciding to just end with a vague declaration of “business.” This is the first time where my schooling for the next year is completely unknown, and while I find aspects of this exciting, I cannot help but worry about my lack of plans and the stress that comes with making those plans.

I have no idea what college will actually be like, if I’ll be a good student, if I’ll enjoy college at all. I am faced with more options than I’ve ever had before in my life, but what really makes this experience terrifying is the thought that what I choose to do will impact my whole life. I feel like in the years to come I will be laying down the foundation on which I will eventually build my life upon and not knowing what will yield the best result is frustrating. I realize I am naive and this is why the burden of choosing my path weighs more heavily than if I trusted myself .

I know the rest of my life will be littered with decisions; inevitably I will regret routes I’ve chosen. While this is a sobering reality, it only makes me appreciate more the simplicity of high school, particularly the next six months.

To seniors who are itching to graduate and leave all this behind, I urge you to take a moment and find solace in the fact that you know what the next few months will entail and simply enjoy the last bits of predictability you are granted.